Thank you for checking my blog over 120 times in the past month and being sorely disappointed to learn I had not posted anything...again. I think about you regularly and how sweet it is that you take interest in my little life.
There are plenty of interesting things I could be posting about, but I've been more concerned with hanging on to the end of my rope as of late. You see, the stress of life has brought on a bout of depression and I've been struggling more than I have cared to admit.
Fortunately, things are looking up and I'm feeling more hope (and yes, even joy) every day. Every time I acknowledge things are improving the following day seems to be a set back, so I'm hoping this doesn't lead to a rough Monday.
While I've been out there have been some interesting developments:
I've been doing a home preschool for Mason and Colin and I'm so pleased with the progress Mason is making. I was really nervous about being his teacher (actually teacher's helper - we're using www.cullensabcs.com), but it has given us several opportunities for discovery that I am grateful for.
I've managed to do some bottling this fall - pears, peaches, and jelly. Also my tomatoes, corn, and carrots have produced in abundance.
I've managed to spend more money than I thought was available with a new radiator and brakes for the van and upgrades to our computer after it crashed twice. (I went five days without a computer. Ahhhhhhh!)
Business at Bishop Woodcraft has taken a much needed upturn. After weeks of on and off work our guys are booked for the next two months or so. The extra fast offerings are really paying off!
And the news you have been waiting for...I had my ultrasound on September 20th. The baby looks healthy and well and was three times confirmed to be a boy. I felt so certain that morning this was the girl I had been waiting for that the shock was overwhelming. It is not that I won't love a little boy, I just wanted so desperately for my daughter to come and bring the completion of our family. I cried for the remainder of the day.
Since then I have received great comfort from family and friends and from the Spirit. Elder Uchtdorf's talk at the Relief Society meeting brought me comfort to remember and not forget this little boy I had covenanted long ago to bring to our family. Elder Anderson's talk on Saturday afternoon session of Conference reminded me of the commandment to multiply and replenish the earth and the glory that comes with that effort. And a new and inspiring friend, Shauna Essig - mother of 11, gave me perspective on the joy of raising a righteous family and pressing forward with faith.
So, as my belly continues to grow so will my faith that Heavenly Father is guiding our family and has a plan for us.
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6 comments:
Oh the pregnancy depression. I know it well too. You are an amazing person, mother, wife and daughter of your Heavenly Father. When I am sad, I watch TV, you bottle fruit, teach your kids and have time to have good perspective. I admire you!!
Sounds like you've been busy and been through a lot. I'm always happy to find out the baby is health and growig well. You get so much done...bottling fruit...doing home preschool...that's impressive!
You continue to amaze me! I hope this week is a good one:) Elder Andersen's talk was one of my favorites!
Congratulations on a healthy little boy! Boys are certainly wild, but so much fun!
You are so amazing to be so productive, even when life is difficult. You're very inspiring!
Tobi, your daughter may come...just be patient. Enjoy your sweet little son and know that you are helping to raise strong, valiant, righteous men of God! They truly are blessed to have you as their mother and I hope you know that your example is appreciated and respected! xoxo!
The irony. I feel the same way about this baby, but in my case I needed it to be a boy to bring a "completion" to our family. I was in a huge turmoil over it. I have always wanted a lot of kids but I feel like someone who is signing up for calculus when I should be in algebra 1. I missed a few classes but think I can still get a great reward by going to a more difficult class, even if I'm mostly staring like a fish. When I found out what I'm having I was in turmoil but strangely an answer came immediately that I'm having those other two kids- to total our family to 7 kids. And I feel SO inadequate. Im not kidding myself--- im no Ramona Blanchard! Ive had bouts of depression over it, even though I want it! It's weird. I just keep thinking of the words of one of my teachers in college, " you just need to buckle down."
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